Fear often triggers one’s fight-or flight instincts. Depending on the circumstances, when it happens to me, I’ll either persevere through an unwanted situation or become paralyzed by fear. When I become frozen, I don’t want to do anything, and I let the fear caused by the situation just flush over me.
One of my biggest fears is something that’s pretty common for people with cystic fibrosis (CF): having a lung transplant and rehabbing afterward.
What CF feels like
A popular blog post by the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation describes having cystic fibrosis as like breathing through a coffee straw. I wouldn’t exactly describe it like that for me, as everyone with CF is different. But the coughing fits I have make me really struggle to catch my breath. That’s when it feels like breathing through a coffee straw for me.
I think I’d describe CF as more like breathing with two 50-pound dumbbells on my chest. It can feel like my entire body is compressed against a wall.
I don’t exactly have anything to worry about, though, as my FEV1/FEVC ratio numbers — which measure a person’s vital lung capacity — are in the 80s. That would be considered great for most people with CF, and it is well above the numbers that would lead to consideration for a transplant. My fear, though, is that as I get older, my breathing will drastically decline at a rapid rate.
The statistics for lung transplant are quite impressive for people with cystic fibrosis. According to the CF Trust, nine out of 10 people survive a lung transplant, and most survive the year after the operation. About half survive another five years, and many survive for 10 years or more. The process isn’t exactly foolproof, but the survival rate is exceptional.
So why am I worried? Why am I afraid of having a lung transplant?
I think it comes from the usual cause: a fear of the unknown. I’m scared to have someone else’s body inside my own. I’m scared my own body won’t respond well to change. I fear I would let down the loved ones of the person who donated their lungs.
Ultimately, my fears are probably unwarranted, at least for now. Hopefully, my breathing will continue at a level in which I don’t need a lung transplant.
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